I Am Only Half Here ...

Background to the meditation musing below:

Most mornings, after meditating, I open my journal and write whatever reflection seems to just "hang in the ethers" ~ and often prayers or poems result.

This particular morning, I felt guided, instead, to draw.

I pulled out a pencil and doodled.  Obviously, my artwork leaves much to be desired!

I then pulled out a few colored pencils and "colored" the lines.  I just sat and stared at the drawing for a long, long while.

After sitting with the so-called "artwork," the meditation musing below just poured from my heart. 

I cannot explain the connection between the artwork and the prayer below, but I figure my Soul somehow must understand, and I suppose that's all that matters.

I Am Only Half Here ...

I am only half here ...

I am incomplete

Without You ~

Master Designer!

My heart is not whole

Until it beats in sync with Your Heart.

My ears cannot truly hear

Until You listen through them.

I utter babble

Until You speak through me.

My mind runs wild and restless

Until Your Mind tames and soothes it.

I live fruitlessly and hopelessly

Until Your Life enfolds me.

I wander aimlessly

Until I walk with You.

I am only half here ...

I am incomplete

Without You ~

Holy Beloved!

Make me Whole ~ and Holy ~

As I merge into You.

Oh, Divine Love!

Complete me!

~ By Karen Wood

The Terrible Trembling

I tremble inside,
Knowing You are
Just right there ...
Ready to Touch me
Everywhere!

I cannot wait
For Your Divine Embrace!

My ecstasy is too great
In anticipation
Of Your Caress ...

I fear only Your Touch ~
And the lack of it.

If it weren't for the
Still pool of calm
Buried deep inside
The terrible trembling ...

I would go mad!

~ By Karen Wood

You, Alone

Most Holy Divine Master ~
You alone come to me
When I call out for help ...

You alone hear
My innermost cries
And my deepest longings ...

You alone see
My strongest weaknesses
And my weakest strengths ...

You alone appear
To soothe my angst
And spread quietude across my fears ...

You alone call me forth
To step into discomfort
When it serves a Greater Good ...

You alone beckon me
To Love
And to serve ...

You alone are with me ~
Even when I am
No longer present ...

You alone guide me,
Gently ~
Back to You, Alone.

~ By Karen Wood

May I Drown Myself in You

“Submerge beneath My Living Waters

Sink deep into My Watery Depths

Listen to what you hear there

In the Deep.

When you have reached

The deepest depth ~

Go deeper.

Sink lower.

Find the darkest part.

The Silence is loudest there.

You can hear Me most clearly

There ~

In the Darkness.

In the lowest spot.

When you find the darkest place,

You will see the Light.

Look for Me

There ~

In the Depths and the Darkness

And the Silence.

There ~

I will speak to you

And reveal Myself to you.”

Oh, Holy Presence!

May it be as I heard it

And saw it revealed to me

Even this day.

Oh, Holy One!

May I be worthy

Of submerging once again

‘Neath Your Living Waters.

May I find an even darker place,

An even lower spot,

An ever more Silent space

In the watery depths.

May I drown myself in You,

So I might live again.

~ By Karen Wood

The Perfect Order

Moon on All Souls' Day (Nov. 2) 2011 

There is a Perfect Order ~

The birds know it,

Following the pattern

With honed instincts and changing seasons

As Master Guides.

The Sun knows it,

Revolving to a path that cannot change

No matter how we might will it otherwise

When we wish for

More time.

The Moon knows it,

Beckoning the tides – and us –

To do its impeccable

Lunar bidding.

Deep within,

We know it, too.

For in the face of our biggest questions,

Our mightiest wonderings,

Our most dreadful doubts …

We look up to see

Perfection

In all Creation.

Even when we think we have found a flaw ~

We simply do not have the eyes to see

The Perfect Order.

~ By Karen Wood